drowning out the world.

Sun, 09 May 2004 02:47:35 GMT

I HAVE A NEW JOURNAL. ITS DEATHANDTHECITY. ADD IT. I'LL POST THIS A FEW MORE TIMES SO YOU ASSHOLES KNOW.

Fri, 07 May 2004 01:45:07 GMT

NEW JOURNAL

DEATHANDTHECITY

ADD IT

yes this shit is raw comin at ya door.

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 03:50:50 GMT

im alive dudes...dont worry.

not much has been going on. ive gotten over alot of things that kept me down...i have a wonderful best friend again, who im closer to now than ever before. a cute and wonderful girl likes me and i like her back. (weird right?) i dont care about alot of the things that would irritate the shit out of me on a daily basis. whats the point, ya know?

but just like with anything...who knows how long this will last. im going to enjoy it for as long as i can.

imghost,
erik.

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 18:30:33 GMT

my mom cant be sick...they cant take her away from me like that. im so nervous for her. if i lose her i wont have anyone. shes all i have. maybe it will turn out to be nothing...but what if it doesnt?

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 14:57:31 GMT

yelling rules: 1. everything in itsright place - kid a
yelling rules: 2. morning bell - kid a
yelling rules: high & dry - bends
yelling rules: 4. we suck young blood - hail
yelling rules: 5. street spirit - bends
yelling rules: 6. there there - hail
yelling rules: 7. my iron lung - bends
yelling rules: 8. dollars & cents - amnesiac
yelling rules: 9. fake plastic trees- bends
yelling rules: 10. karma coppers - ok macintosh
yelling rules: 11. bull proof - bends
yelling rules: 12. blow out - pablo
yelling rules: 13. no surprises - ok comp

Thu, 04 Mar 2004 08:18:01 GMT

work is tiring. i come home to more headaches and heartaches. i just cant win.

pictures of you ripped up and rearranged. could you tell them apart in the dark? you are your own worst enemy. it serves you well. displaced, redeposited where you always wanted to be. displaced, repositioned to where it serves you best. ploy for helplessness. a cry for notice. no one fucking understands you.

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 16:51:41 GMT

i've never been in love.

Wed, 25 Feb 2004 07:04:57 GMT

starting over.

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 02:57:03 GMT

work was...entertaining? its gonna suck tomorrow...no one is gonna be working with me that i know. oh well..its a paycheck. thats all i care about.

i deserve so much better.

here we fucking go again.

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 08:10:17 GMT

i think things over too much. im way too negative. the events this past year have really molded me into the hateful and maladjusted person i am today. i hate it and i dont know how to change it. ive got alot of things to work out for myself and i dont know how or where to start. that in itself makes me mad and not want to bother with it. some days things are looking up then some days a brick falls on my face when things are looking up. so it goes.

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 22:56:38 GMT

yeah, bored. awesome. h2o at stevens? who wants to go? im bored. shower time.

ups and downs.

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 20:42:01 GMT

+ cast is off
- arm is still broken
- having to "be careful" for a couple of months until it heals
+ having a job starting on monday
+ full union benifits
+ MONEY
- awfully confused about things

so the good and bad are neck and neck, but sometimes the bad seem to carry alot more weight than the good...even though they shouldnt...because in reality they arent so bad. just frustrating and annoying. i dont know.

peace the fuck outttttttttttttttttttt.

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 02:14:40 GMT

since the internet sucks...i have a new screen name. if xerikillerx starts working again i'll start using it again, but for now my new screen name is

seasickanddocked

FUCK A VALENTINES DAY

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 20:36:10 GMT

i had a fucking shitty ass dream multiple times last night. i cant go get tattooed today. im not doing shit with anybody. today has gone the way of the suck. so like i said before:

FUCK A VALENTINES DAY.

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 02:14:34 GMT

stressed.

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 19:28:47 GMT

i have a feeling today is going to suck. im going back to bed. eat a dick, saturday.

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 09:56:06 GMT

six feet under: season 1. awesome.

i wish i could sleep. i wish a one way ticket to albany would just fall into my lap. id be able to sleep then.

xo

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 23:49:28 GMT

Shadows fall over this small town tonight
Snuffing out the remains of the evening light
My mind is clouded with the events of the day
Why is life torturing me this way
I keep running it back
Running it back through my mind
But what do I get
What do I expect to find
My eyes drop
To the floor
And every step I take forward
Seems so unsure
So I scream out
Crying to a world that does not care
I'm reaching through the black and finding nothing there
I never felt so all alone and so cramped all at once
Trying to forget about a world
That turned up its nose and passed me bye
Sleep washes over
This tired soul
Can't help but let this night
Swallow me whole
Awake to find
The sun staring down
I squint my eyes to avoid
The truth of no resolution found

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 06:46:35 GMT

i want sleep to come so bad...but i dont think it will come as easy as it should tonight. i should be passed out right now considering my lack of sleep in the last 24 hours...but im worried that i might not be able to think right.

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 06:10:20 GMT

shit sucks around here.

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 08:06:21 GMT

FUCK insomnia. im gonna make hotpockets. at 3:06 in the morning. fuck me.

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 21:09:04 GMT

new layout. intense. shes hot. id do her.

<3 thanks

dear crystal marie lanphear...

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 04:17:20 GMT

its hard to think that its been more than a year since we met that one night in the city. and its even harder to think what that year would have been like without you. we've had some amazing times together and we've also had some amazingly awful times together. but things worked out in our favor i guess and the cards fell where they may.

in 45 minutes it will be a month and a day since i last saw you and it seems like an eternity. fix that. real fast like.

love you always.
sticks

something to remeber.

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 11:13:12 GMT

tonight was absolutley incredible. im so bummed jay's going back to that shithole on the other side of the country...but he'll be back. they allllllways come back. i really wish it didnt have to end and that some other people could have made it out tonight. im so tired right now i dont even knwo what im typing.

i do know that i missed you so much tonight and im sorry you couldnt sleep because i wasnt home. i love you.

in other news: i need a job.

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 09:48:15 GMT

4:47 and i still cant fuckign sleep. awesome